Veterans' Day

This flag means a lot to my family.  We are a military family.

My father served in the Navy during Korea.  My brother is still in the Army and will retire within the next year.  My great uncle died serving his country during Pearl Harbor.  My son's best friend was killed in Iraq 4 years ago when is youngest daughter was only 5 weeks old.  My husband has friends that served during Vietnam.  I, also, have friends that have been or are  in the military.   I am proud that I live in this country. 

I would like to honor and thank all of the military service people and especially, their families.  Thank you for doing your job every day to protect my family.  You make this country better because of your sacrifice.

Make over and a date

I love, love my new blog designed by Barb at Ruby Slippers Blog Designs.  She always does a great job and is the only person that I trust.  I look at my new blog and it makes me so happy.  Like hearing birds chirp happy.

Yesterday, I had a date day with my hubby - which we never get to do - since he lives in another state and hasn't been home in a year.  We had a great time.  We started with lunch, some shopping and then dinner at one of our favorite Hawaiian restaurants.  He started feeling guilty about spending money.  My response to him was "in two weeks you are leaving, then I go back to working long hours with no break.  I don't have anyone to spend my time with.  So I don't feel guilty for doing this".  He agreed. 

We live two separate lives right now and we only get 3 separate months a year.  I don't want to spend the time we do have together - not enjoying life together.  It is time that we can't get back, but we can enjoy each other's company when we are together.

Rainy weather

I love rainy weather, when I can stay inside and craft.  I am not a big fan of it at work.  The rain soothes my soul, it relaxes me.  My mind gets more creative with the rain.  It rains a lot in Hilo when I visit, but I just sit on the patio and work on quilting or feathers.  Hubby isn't very fond of the rain anymore - since he is an outdoor kinda of guy.  I am looking outside the window and there are big puffy gray clouds.  So relaxing.

Ton of bricks

It hit me "like a ton of bricks" about 30 minutes after I posted yesterday's sob story.  I figured out what I wanted, what I needed.  I want and need my life to be simpler and I believe I figured out how to accomplish it.

First, the fantastic Barb is making this blog all pretty.  Second, I am going through my stuff and getting rid of some of it or finding a new use for a lot of it - stay turned to that.  My mind is spinning with possibilities, but good possibilities.  Time to use what I have and not to buy anything new for awhile.  Third, I am working towards retiring early.  It might not be this school year, but by next school year I will be done.  I figured out how to do it and it is going to take a little bit of work to accomplish it - but I can do it.  I want to spend more time with the grand babies.  Not sure if my husband will be moving back this June or next, but I want to spend more time with him.

I feel good about this decision.  My kids and hubby want me to retire - so I will stay healthy.  It is time and I have a plan - it feels really good.

Still fighting

I am still fighting the battle that is going on in my head.  The decisions that need to be made. 

I am enjoying the time off.  I would like this to be my life.  I miss a couple of the girls that I work with.  I am enjoying cooking, again.  I haven't wanted to do that for a long time.  I would like to try some of the receipes that I have collected by watching the cooking shows.  Why, does everything look so yummy.

I am trying to find some time to be creative, but with hubby home visiting it has been hard.  He should be golfing this afternoon with our son - so hopefully I will be able to get something done.  If I would just put the grand baby down, lol.  He is adorable.  I could just look at him for hours.

Picture update

I, finally, updated my picture wall.  I love this wall.  I had left my computer in Hawaii and the template for the pictures was on that computer. I put a bunch of the baby on the wall.  I can't believe that he is already 13 days old.  He has changed so much.  I am loving his expressions, love to watch him sleep.

This is the first thing that I see when I walk downstairs in the morning and the last thing that I see.  It makes me happy.  The pictures do hang straight on the wall, but they got a little distorted when I took the picture. 

I, think, we are going to the beach - since it is warm - to take a couple of pictures of the grand baby today.  We will, probably, show him off at daddy's work.

I am still having major anxiety of what to do.  I feel like it is time for a change, but not sure what to do.  It is starting to cripple me - physically and emotionally.  I really need it to stop.  I am in so much pain because of it.  It is so hard to work with a difficult person.  I try and move pass it, but I can't. I have the positive attitude when I get there - to just be there with my kids.  Then, she does something and says something that is so unprofessional.  It bothers me.  It ruins my day.  Maybe I need to change schools, but I don't want to leave my friends and parents that I love because of one person.  I need to release that control.

So much to do

I have so much to do.  The list is a mile long or maybe two.  But all I want to do is hold this beautiful bundle.

My beautiful grand son, born a week ago.  I, seriously, can't get enough of him.  Lucky for me - his parents share and I am loving the fact that he is living with us right now.  It makes me want to buy some property and build houses on it for all my kids and grand kids to live in - close to me.  Close enough to snuggle, kiss and just admire.  But, when they get cranky - I can send them home. 

He is what makes life so wonderful.